Bearing Witness

The pain crawled through my neck, up into my face, and down into my chest. I briefly opened my eyes. Everything was white and bright. I tried to swallow but the pain was too intense. The sounds of beeping machines and respirators edged into my ears. It took me a few minutes to realise I was in High Care at Linksfield Hospital in Johannesburg and a few seconds more to remember I was waking up after neck surgery. I knew there had to be a morphine button close by and gingerly felt around with my hand in search of this miracle. I got tangled in the tubes and cords attached to my arm. A nurse noticed I was awake and came to assist me in accessing the pain relief. I enthusiastically pushed the morphine button and as the medication flowed through my sore body, I went back to sleep.

The neck surgery I had just undergone was ground breaking. My neurosurgeon, Dr Weinberg, had invented and developed the small ceramic and titanium disc he inserted between my C5 and C6 vertebra. It was a microscopic surgery utilising the most modern technology and equipment. Eleven years earlier, Dr Weinberg replaced a broken disc in my spine with a titanium disc and did a fusion at the base of my spine using three screws. His ingenuity and skill are inspiring and have significantly improved my quality of life.

My family visited me later that evening. They marvelled at the technology surrounding me; the dozen plug points, oxygen outlets, monitors, medications. Everything was tracked and monitored, and if anything went wrong, the nurses had all the equipment around me to fix the problem. It was an incredible setup showcasing progress and precision.

Three months later I landed in Juba, South Sudan. The Juba International Airport is a fitting welcome to the brokenness of the country. The airport is a series of dirty tents. The ground covered with splintering and broken ply wood. The space too small to hold the passengers and pesky baggage carriers. Next to the tent airport is the unfinished building of an established airport. The incomplete building next to the tents is a picture of what South Sudan could have been and what it actually is. The country had the potential for greatness, development, prosperity, but instead, it is battered and worn down, barely functional.

I have been living in South Sudan for almost eight months; the most fulfilling yet challenging eight months I have experienced. I am accustomed to the basic living conditions, familiarised with the limited movement allowed and extensive security restrictions, used to the simple diet, adjusted to living communally, and living in intense heat. These are not the challenging aspects of my new life. These are all manageable. The difficulty comes in my responsibility to bear witness to the suffering of South Sudan and the toll it takes on me as a result.

I have visited our field teams and projects in Renk, Aweil, Maban, and Pagil. Each site provides a variety of services to the surrounding communities; health, nutrition, water, sanitation, and hygiene (WASH), non-food items, and emergency shelter. The needs are great yet exceptionally simple; safe water, malaria treatment, wound care, supplementary food, cooking pots. More than seven million people are estimated to need humanitarian assistance. The population of South Sudan is 12 million, of which, 2.1 million are refugees in neighbouring countries and 1.9 million are internally displaced people. 4.8 million people are severely food insecure. It is difficult to comprehend the scale of the needs in this country.

My job as Communications Officer means the needs become individualised. I meet and photograph the people receiving our services. I interview mothers who have lost children to malnutrition and husbands to the civil war. I hear stories of pain, despair, torture, death, fear, and mere survival. I bear witness to their tragedy.

The people of South Sudan are often described as resilient; despite the incredible hardships, they keep going, keep raising their families, keep moving around, keep holding onto hope for a better future. But I don’t see resilience, I see survival. Resilience is defined as the capacity to recover quickly from difficulties. The word recover implies the return to a better place. I understand resilience to mean that when crisis strikes, the people work together to overcome the crisis and improve or at least return to a place of safety. Resilience is a choice, a privileged choice. South Sudanese do not have this choice, they do not have this privilege. They are forced to survive. They do not have the opportunity to recover and are given no tools or support from the country’s leadership to facilitate this recovery. Each new crisis, whether it be a cholera outbreak, increase in violence, or food security emergency, reduces their capacity to be resilient and pushes them further into just surviving.

I began this post with the recollection of surgery because it is something I often think about when I am walking through sparse villages where women are trekking hours to collect water and firewood, children are not afforded the gift of an education, men are jobless, food is scarce, there are few roads, little if any phone network, and no electricity. Given this environment, the healthcare our teams provide is exceptional. With limited resources and infrastructure, our doctors, nurses, and clinical assistants successfully treat thousands of people each year. Our team in Renk runs a Stabilisation Centre caring for malnourished children with medical complications. In Maban, our team runs a 24-hour delivery centre assisting mothers to safely give birth. Our team in Aweil uses bicycles to access the clinics during the rainy season to provide life-saving nutrition treatment. In Leer, our team crosses swamps with backpacks full of medicine to reach the most vulnerable. Our Emergency Response Team is active across the country running vaccination campaigns and treatment centres. The lack of state of the art facilities and equipment does not restrict the Medair health teams. They are as skilled and innovative as Dr Weinberg, perhaps more so. They save lives every day.

The work we are doing in South Sudan is easy to bear witness to. The work is good. The work is hopeful. The work indicates a potential for the choice of resilience. But the situation in the country and tangible trouble the people encounter daily make bearing witness impossible at times. It crushes my spirit and shatters my heart. I physically feel the pain of the place and the people.

There is a responsibility in bearing witness, but it is also a privilege. In my twenty minutes or so interview with a man, woman, or child, I get a window into their lives and their troubles. Opening this window, even a little, motivates and grounds me. It makes life simple. Life becomes about the tangible and the now. My perspectives are stripped, and I am left with an authenticity that can’t be attained in comfort. This life of mine is a gift. In its simplicity, rawness, and regular hopelessness, it’s a gift.


First Rotation

“Woe to the land of whirring wings along the rivers of Cush, which sends envoys by sea in papyrus boats over the water. Go, swift messengers to a people tall and smooth-skinned, to a people feared far and wide, an aggressive nation of strange speech, whose land is divided by rivers.” Isaiah 18:1-2

It is believed that the Kingdom of Kush / Cush is ancient Sudan at the confluences of the Blue Nile, White Nile, and River Atbara and Isaiah 18:1-2 is a prophecy of that land. Kush was the eldest son of Ham who was a son of Noah. Many hold the perception that this verse refers to South Sudan’s secession from Sudan in 2011 and God’s blessing on the land. After two and a half months in South Sudan, I can attest to the fact that South Sudan is “an aggressive nation of strange speech, whose land is divided by rivers.”

After a week of briefings at the Medair headquarters in Switzerland, I arrived in Juba, South Sudan on Sunday, 18 June. I had been warned about the chaos of Juba International Airport prior to departure but was not fully prepared for it. The airport is housed in a series of white tents, stained with dirty mud, and open to the elements. The floor consists of broken pieces of plywood balancing precariously on cinder blocks. There are regular holes in the floor where unsuspecting travellers’ feet have fallen through into the sludge below. There is not enough room for the multitude of people and the locals vying for the opportunity to carry a bag for a fee. The experience was surreal and an adequate introduction into the mess that is South Sudan.

After decades of war, South Sudan succeeded in gaining independence from Sudan in 2011. It was a joyous and hopeful event marking what many believed to be a new chapter in the lives of the people of this broken country. President Salva Kirr and vice-president Reik Machar vowed to usher in a period of peace and prosperity focusing on unity and democracy. However, after years of fighting, the government positions were filled primarily with soldiers with little or no experience in nation building. It did not take long for the cracks to appear and corruption to take root. In mid-2013, Machar indicated his intention to challenge Salva Kirr in the next presidential election. Threatened by this prospect, Salva Kirr fired Machar and other members of his cabinet. In December 2013, a civil war flared up enveloping the country, killing thousands, and displacing thousands more. Over three and a half years later, the war continues and those suffering the most are the women and children scattered across a beautiful, fertile, and oil-rich land.

Despite the harsh reality of life in South Sudan, I have loved my time here so far. It is difficult, it is tiring, it is frustrating, but it has become my home and I am pleased to be here. My first rotation was ten weeks. I am currently in Nairobi, Kenya on rest and relaxation leave which is a requirement of Medair and most other NGOs. It is a welcomed break.

I was fortunate to have an extended handover period with the previous Communications Officer Diana. It was an invaluable few weeks of learning about Medair, South Sudan, and the requirements of my role. My tasks are varied and involve updating social media, compiling press releases, hosting media guests, drafting private funding proposals, managing photographs and videos, writing stories, editing the monthly prayer report, and overseeing branding and visibility among other things. I am enjoying the work and the people I interact with. The process of getting my work approved has been an adjustment; on most occasions, at least six people review and edit my story or proposal before it is used.

I had the opportunity to have four field trips in my first rotation; two to Renk in the north of the country and two to Aweil in the north-west. Both were excellent chances to see the work being done on the ground, meet the teams in these locations, and witness the life-saving work taking place.

My first field trip was to Renk to which I travelled with Diana and two videographers who were collecting material for Medair. My second trip to Renk was with a professional photographer. Renk county is on the border with Sudan and Medair is a provider of primary health care including a 24-hour reproductive clinic and 24-hour stabilisation centre for children with malnutrition experiencing complications, nutrition treatment, and water, sanitation, and hygiene (WASH) services. The team is dedicated and diligent, working exceptionally hard under difficult circumstances. Often mothers giving birth have complications and as there are no facilities for caesarean sections in Renk, the team arranges for the mother to be referred to a hospital in Sudan. A Medair vehicle transports the patient to the border where she is then transferred to a donkey cart to traverse the no-man’s-land between the borders, and finally taken by taxi to the hospital. On my most recent trip to Renk, two babies and one mother died. It is a desperate situation but for every life lost, several are saved by the Medair team.

I visited Aweil with the same videographers and again with a journalist and photographer representing one of our donors. Aweil is an exceptionally fertile region suffering from a severe food crisis. Medair initially intervened in Aweil as an emergency response to the nutrition catastrophe but the immensity of the problems resulted in the establishment of a static project. Currently Medair is operating eight nutrition sites and will begin supporting local primary health care units next month. Over 5,500 people are being assisted by Medair in Aweil each month. Aweil should not be enduring a food disaster; the land is intensely green and crops should grow with little assistance. Amartya Sen, a Harvard economist, argued that there has never been a serious famine in a country, even an impoverished one, with a democratic government and a free press. The press acts as a warning system and the pressures of democracy dissuade rulers from famine producing policies. Although South Sudan is no longer considered to be in a state of famine, 6 million people are in need of urgent food assistance. In Northern Bahr el Ghazal where Aweil is located, almost 500,000 people are classified as living in a state of a nutrition emergency. The Medair team in Aweil is providing assistance to children under the age of five and pregnant and lactating women.

I spend the majority of my time in the capital city, Juba. Juba is a broken metropolis characterised by potholed roads, few services, tight security, and a fearful population. The Medair compound consists of our residence and offices and is under 24-hour guard. There are usually approximately 24 people living and working in the base and there are frequent team members travelling through Juba to and from leave. Two dozen national staff also work on the compound. Due to the security risks, Medair imposes a 7pm curfew on all staff staying on base. We cannot be out after 7pm or before 6:30am. We are not allowed to walk anywhere and are therefore reliant on Medair drivers. Electricity is provided by a generator which is switched off for three hour-long intervals each day. We are fortunate to have air conditioners in our rooms and offices which makes the intense heat tolerable. We have running water but it is exceptionally salty and only cold. I am accustomed to cold, salty showers. Lunch and dinner is provided each day except Sunday. The food primarily consists of rice, beans, and ugali. As a team, we make the most of our restricted life. We play games, watch movies, have “room parties”, and go out to eat on Sundays. Some play ultimate frisbee with other NGOs on Saturday mornings. Life is simple in Juba. Besides the security threats surrounding us, we work hard, make the most of our times off-base, and build relationships with each other. We have team devotions every week-day morning and often have prayer and worship evenings. Without our faith, life in South Sudan would be that much more difficult.

I feel deeply privileged to be working with Medair. Our work is truly saving lives. I also feel a huge responsibility to adequately tell the story of South Sudan, her people, the struggles, the hope, and the team members of Medair sacrificing so much to do this vital work.

I am excited for my second rotation which begins on Monday with a visit from a French documentary maker whom I will host for three weeks. I will again have the opportunity to visit several field locations. I value the relationships I have established so far and am expectant for what they promise to develop into. My time of rest in Kenya has been much needed and valuable. I plan to go back to South Africa in November after my second rotation.

Thank you for your prayers and support. I continue to feel God’s hand of guidance, protection, and providence over me and my work.

Ten Days in Juba

I am the new Communications Officer for Medair in South Sudan. I arrived in the capital city of Juba on Sunday, 18 June. These are my impressions so far.

  1. Coffee

As a coffee-lover, I was relieved to see an array of coffee making equipment prominently displayed on a shelf in the kitchen, AeroPress, Bialetti, French Press, and an equally impressive selection of coffee. Morning coffee routines are important in Juba and that first cup is usually savoured with a fresh bread roll.

Tip: The corner shop next to the compound is owned and operated by a man from Eritrea who will roast and grind coffee as required.

  1. Weather

It’s hot, incredibly hot, even in the “cool” season. Fortunately the offices and bedrooms are equipped with air conditioners but when the generator is turned off the mandatory three times a day, be ready to sweat! This is the rainy season so when the rains do roll in the clouds are majestic, the lightening powerful, and the cool breeze welcome.

Tip: Drink lots of water. Enjoy the cold showers.

  1. Phonetic Alphabet

Mingled with relief work protocols comes a need to know and memorise the NATO Phonetic Alphabet: alpha, bravo, charlie, etc. Each team member is assigned a call sign which is referred to using this system and phone calls often require this knowledge.

Tip: Write it down somewhere accessible and memorise it if possible.

  1. Names, Faces, and Roles

The South Sudan team is large and there are so many names, faces, and roles to remember. Trying to keep it all straight is overwhelming. There is also a lot of people movement on base so there is constant in and out between Juba, the field locations, and Nairobi.

Tip: Keep your contact list with you. Don’t shy away from asking someone’s name more than once, or twice, or even three times!

  1. Information

An immense amount of information is provided by Medair at the headquarters in Switzerland and the team in South Sudan. Documents, articles, briefings, books – there is so much to take in and so much to remember. I am new to relief work so this has been somewhat daunting.

Tip: Take it one day at a time. It is impossible to know everything at once and no one expects you to. But keep asking questions and learning.

  1. Acronyms

Humanitarian work and workers deeply rely on acronyms. Everything from a position, a location, a project, an illness, and an intervention boasts a shorthand code. It can be daunting but Google can help most of the time. But beware; for a few days I thought GAM represented Global Asset Management before realising it actually means Global Acute Malnutrition.

Tip: Keep a list of common acronyms. Don’t be afraid to ask if you don’t know what the acronym stands for.

  1. Food

It is lovely to have two meals prepared and served every day and even though the menu repeats itself weekly it is better than having to source and cook food oneself. The Medair cooks are diligent and the food consistent. Be ready to enjoy cold food and practice using just a fork.

Tip: Try everything. Make sure you get to meals on time or you may miss out. Keep a stash of your favourite snacks available.

  1. Team Life

At any given time, approximately 32 people are living in the Medair base in Juba. That’s a lot of people to have in the same building living and working together. Despite the potential for irritation and frustration, the team life is dynamic and easy-going. People are kind and considerate and have made me feel welcome.

Tip: Make an effort to get to know everyone. Individual stories are fascinating and people have so much to share.

  1. Juba

Juba is an intriguing city; a combination of incomplete buildings, shipping container offices, dirt roads, random restaurants, NGO vehicles, and reckless bodo bodo motorbike taxis. The city is not as chaotic as other African cities I have experienced but nevertheless has a definite African feel to it.

Tip: Make the most of trips outside the base to take in the surroundings and soak up the city buzz.

  1. Medair

I arrived the week of the Quarterly Management Meetings (QMMs) which provided an invaluable opportunity to learn about Medair’s programmes in depth and, just as importantly, the incredible successes the teams have accomplished in the last three months. This organisation is really saving lives in South Sudan.

Tip: Ask questions and take advantage of staff visiting from the field. They have inspiring stories to share and experience to dispense.

A New Adventure

If you had asked me in January if I would be interested in moving to and working in South Sudan I probably would have said no. I had a general understanding of the country and its problems but had no real desire to get involved. My heart was in the Middle East and that is where I thought, or rather hoped, I was headed. That has changed. On Saturday, 10 June, I leave South Africa to begin a new career with Medair in South Sudan. Not something I expected to happen just five months ago.

The Journey

In October 2016, Haiti was battered by Hurricane Matthew causing widespread destruction and devastation. My mom sent me a video clip of the daughter of a friend of hers from Bible School who was reporting on behalf of Medair and detailing the organisation’s response to the disaster. The following month, while browsing a job alert website in search of an opportunity in the Middle East, I saw a post from Medair advertising a communications role in Amman, Jordan. I skimmed the organisation’s website and sent in my application. Since 2014 I have applied for over 120 jobs in the Middle East with no success so I was not particularly hopeful that this application would be any different. In December, I received an email from Medair requesting I complete a further application as part of the hiring process. Again, I was not especially hopeful but sent off the required documents. In January 2017, I was informed that the position in Amman had been filled and asked if I would be interested in working in other areas of the world. I expressed my willingness to go elsewhere and spent more time investigating Medair and their projects. Later in the month I had a Skype interview with the headquarters in Switzerland and I was invited to attend the Relief and Recovery Orientation Course (ROC) during the first week of February in the town of Vallorbe outside Geneva. The ROC was an intense and exhausting week in beautiful snow consisting of training sessions, a simulation, briefings, and two interviews which resulted in much gained knowledge, a greater understanding of the organisation, and incredible friendships. I returned to South Africa with excitement that Medair may be my new home. It was then communicated that I had passed the ROC and could now apply for vacancies which I began immediately. I had applied and interviewed for positions in communications which at the time were not available. I applied for several project management roles and was unsuccessful. At the end of April, a communications role in South Sudan became available and I had a Skype interview with the Country Director and Deputy Country Director. Two weeks later I received an email welcoming me to the Medair family. The preparation has been hectic but today, less than a week away from departure, I am ready to go.

The Timing

As many of you know, I have been searching for a career change for several years but my attempts were fruitless. My journey with Medair began six months ago and the timing has been perfect. In October 2016, I began experiencing severe neck pain. I had physiotherapy, acupuncture, and x-rays and took a variety of pain medication. The day I was due to fly to Switzerland for the ROC, my physiotherapist recommended a start wearing a neck brace. On my way home to pack for the trip I stopped to say goodbye to my parents. They saw me uncomfortably squeezed into the neck brace and prayed that my neck pain would subside for my trip. I got home, packed my bags, and decided to leave the brace at home. I felt I could not show up at the ROC broken. I landed in Cairo, disembarked, and felt no pain. For the seven days I was in Switzerland I had absolutely no pain and required no pain medication. It was incredible. It was a miracle. Within a day of getting home the pain returned. I saw my neurosurgeon in March, he admitted me to hospital for three days of traction, and conducted a MRI. The scan indicated a disc in my neck had bulged and broken which was causing the pain in my neck, shoulders, and arms. At the end of March, I had neck surgery to replace the damaged disc with a titanium and ceramic disc. I was in recovery for two weeks, had several more uncomfortable weeks, but am now pain-free and strong. The timing surrounding this communications role in South Sudan has worked perfectly with my neck problems and my work at Bean There Coffee Company. I have had several weeks to prepare and handover my tasks and responsibilities and am in the right space at the right time to make this move.

The Organisation

Established in 1988, Medair helps people who are suffering in remote and devastated communities around the world survive crisis, recover with dignity, and develop skills to build a better future. Medair is a relief and recovery organisation responding to natural disasters and conflicts currently operating in 12 countries. Medair specialises in three sectors: water, sanitation, and hygiene (WASH), shelter and infrastructure, and health and nutrition. Medair is a Christian organisation and states: “At Medair our highest goal is to honour God through who we are and what we do – shown by our desire to do high quality humanitarian work – on an individual and corporate basis. We want to bring our professional, practical, and management skills as an expression of God’s love to the world’s most vulnerable.”

The Country

Medair has operated in South Sudan since 1992 and is the organisation’s largest program. Currently Medair employs 50 international staff and 500 local staff in South Sudan. The country is a collision of natural and man-made disaster. Formed in 2011, South Sudan is the world’s youngest country and it set off with much hope and optimism. In late 2013, due to bold political power plays, civil war exploded and has engulfed the country ever since. Hundreds of thousands of people have been pushed from their homes and rendered as refugees. In 2016, a famine was pronounced and the country is also plagued with cholera and malaria illnesses. The problems and the pain are immense and Medair is on the frontline aiding the people of South Sudan. In February, Medair administered 30,772 cholera vaccinations in just two days!

Several of the Medair staff members in attendance at the ROC had served in South Sudan and their stories nudged my interest in the troubled land. Since then, I have read about the country, watched documentaries, and attempted to know as much as possible prior to departure.

The Job

 I have been hired as the communications officer in South Sudan. I will be responsible for providing communications and fundraising resources to the headquarters in Switzerland, dealing with media and public relations, managing social media, connecting with institutional and private donors, monitoring branding and co-branding coordination, and overseeing internal communication. I will be based in the capital city of Juba and will spend approximately 35% of my time in field locations including projects in Leer, Renk, and Maban. It is my privilege to share the stories of South Sudan.

The Next Steps

My last day at Bean There will be Friday, 9 June, and I leave South Africa on Saturday, 10 June. I am going to the Medair headquarters in Switzerland for a week of induction and briefing and am scheduled to arrive in South Sudan on Sunday, 18 June. It is a time of joy and sadness as I wrap up my blessed and full life in South Africa.

Entwined with the excitement of this new adventure this is a fair degree of anxiety. This is a big change! Please pray that my adjustment will be swift and smooth. Please pray that my good health is maintained. Please pray for my safety. Please pray for the relationships I will make with my new colleagues. Please pray for the people of South Sudan and the effectiveness of Medair’s projects. Please pray for my family.

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God’s hand has clearly and deliberately led me to this point. Thank you for your care and support. Thank you especially to my family. You can follow my journey on Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, and blog.